A Trip to the Hypnotist..

Being a believer in alternative treatment has brought me to accompany my grandma to a hynotist.. yup here in Kajang.. It was my auntie and my dad who took her there. On the third session, I decided to have a look..

It was 1984 since my grandpa passed away.. My grandma's love towards him is just so great that she can never forget him. Always in her handbag is a black and white photo of them.. my grandma and grampa together, crumpled and battered. It is her love for him that caused her to suffer from depression. It has been on and off since his death but it's the worst now..

Surely she is on medication.. but the latest effort was to the hynotist.. When she entered the room with Nabila (the practitioner), we could hear soft music and Nabila trying to console her telling her that everything is from Allah. I wish I could hear everything but then.. it is supposed to be private, of course..

At the end of the session, Nabila explained about Alpha Mind.. where we are in our subconscious mind.. and somehow.. she lead my grandma to use the power of her mind to channel all her negative thoughts into a light bulp. After numerous attempts, and saying "Aku redha ya Allah", "Aku bahagia, ya Allah" again and again, she managed to break a tile using the light bulb. We cheered for her while Nabila kept on saying that she is okay now.. she is healed..

I was really amazed and wonder whether I should try the treatment.. But then, I am not willing to sacrifice a whole lot of money. I somehow remember the book I borrowed from my dad years and years ago "You are What You Believe" by Sharizat. It was a national bestseller then..

Sharizat did mention in her book that all of us have the control to our mind and explained the difference between conscous mind and subconscious mind.

One huge difference is that.. when we are in our conscious mind... we wil be able to reject certain information that we do not want to believe.. If I say "You are stupid", I am sure you will deny this! Oddly enough.. if you say it too often, your mind will transfer the information to your subconscious mind; which will believe whatever information received.. That scares the hell out of me..

I remember when I was still teaching, there will be a lot of parents saying to me during report card day ceremony "Anak saya ni lembab sikit cikgu, malas pulak tu..". Everytime I heard that i'll say "astaghfirullah.."... I wonder if they have said it too often that the children believe them.. Na'uzibillah.. I'm just glad my mom never said that.. she's say "anak bertuah" instead..


We Malays do believe that if you say anything for more than 40 times, it will be a prayer and will be granted.. Of course, when you say anything long enough, you will tend to believe and your mind will make your body works towards it!

I do believe in positive affirmation... I always try to convince myself.. I am a good mother, I am a good cook, I am brave and confident.. I've convinced myself so much that I believe it! After this.. I'm going to have even a longer list of positive affirmation.. hide it somewhere for my eyes only!

A Trip to the Hypnotist..

The Art of Forgiving

In 2007, I had a big fight with a really good friend. It was my mistake.. I was really unhappy about her that i wrote a long sms about her to my husband in hope for calming myself. I was relief after i expressed my dissatisfaction to my husband. Two days later only i realized that i didn't send the sms to my husband, i sent it to her instead.

That was the end of the relationship. Regret? Who doesn't regret a huge mistake like that? I apologized and apologized but i know there was no way she could ever forgive me. She told me her reasons. She said she really thought that i was a genuine sincere friend, until that day.. I lost a good friend..

I had no choice. I left her alone, trying to give her some time to forgive me. Nothing happened. She avoided me completely, refusing to even look at me. She told me she would start crying if she ever did.. and i know it was time... to let go.

I hold on to all great memories we had together... and i forgive her for not forgiving me.. and the most important thing is.. i forgive myself for making such terrible mistake in my life.. Sounds like i don't really care but i do.. I just don't want to regret things that i can never change.. There is no such thing as "what if?". With that i have a piece of mind...

I pray that one day, she will find the art of forgiveness and have peace in her heart for forgiving is not meant for others only. I believe, Allah wants us to forgive and He gives peace to both those who forgive and forgiven..

So, this is my positive affirmation everytime i feel reaally down..

I forgive you for hurting me and I forgive myself for hurting others and I forgive myself for all the mistakes that I have done!


Try it! It'll work wonders!

The Art of Forgiving