Sunday, August 22, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Ahlan Ya Ramadhan! Ku Menunggu RahmatMu, Ya Allah!
Alhamdulillah.. sampai juga Ramadhan tahun ini. How time flies. Masa kecik-kecik dulu, nak menghabiskan satu tahun, punyalah lama.. tapi rasa macam baru je bersalinkan Muhammad Ramadhan lepas.. dah nak setahun dah.
Selalunya.. sejak lahir anak yang sulung 11 tahun.. cuma dua kali je miss puasa. Yelah... mengandung, menyusu.. mengandung lagi dan menyusu.. Tak merasalah mengganti puasa. Bila tahun lepas bersalin dalam bulan ramadhan, 15 hari lah nak kena gantinya.. masih belum habis ganti.. Agaknya semangat yang tak berapa kuat... almaklumlah.. bila menyusu.. memang sentiasa lapar.
Terharu rasa bila anak-anak sanggup puasa sunat menemankan ibu mengganti puasa.. Siap pesan pada yang sulung, kalau ibu tiada.. waris yang kena gantikan.. Dia janji akan gantikan. Alhamdulillah..
Percubaan kali pertama bawa Muhammad ke masjid masa solat hajat sekolah anak. Tak sampai satu rakaat dah terbatal.. bukan apa.. tergelak sebab Muhammad merangkak melintasi jemaah sambil berhenti dan mengagah makcik-makcik dan kakak kakak.. Nina terus pergi ke saf hujung dan tunggu dia.. Harap-harap tak marah lah makcik-makcik tu ya..
Bila dah ada baby.. dulu terasa sedih la jugak, tak boleh nak pergi ke surau bersama-sama ahli keluarga yang lain, miss ceramah-ceramah di antara terawih.. tapi bila difikirkan balik, Allah memang bagi bonus bagi ibu-ibu yang menjaga anak. Duduk di rumah pun dah dikira ibadah, setiap tangisan apabila memotong bawang dikira pahala. Apatah lagi bila, menyusukan anak. Bila ingat balik pahala yang Allah sediakan walaupun berada di rumah.. terubat hati ini. Janji, tak boleh merungut.
Bila Ramadhan tiba, entah kenapa terasa sayu hati.. dengan kerahmatan Allah. Sesungguhnya Dialah yang Maha Pemurah.. Diberikan bonus berganda-ganda.. Diberikan ruang untuk kita memperbaiki diri kita dan ruang untuk kita bertarung dengan nafsu sendiri. Selalunya.. kita menyalahkan syaitan. Allah juga memberi 'servis' percuma.. Sebulan untuk servis 'digestive' kita, (selagi kita tidak makan macam gilerr).
Nina awal-awal lagi dah beritau adik ipar yang tinggal dengan kami buat masa ni.. bulan puasa ni, kami tak makan mewah-mewah.. tahun lepas, sekali pun tak pergi ke bazar ramadhan. Nina nampak dia macam terkejut. Bukan apa, harga dah tentu melambung-lambung dan kalau bulan Ramadhan ni tak ambil peluang nak jinakkan nafsu, rugilah. Lagipun, memang suami dan Nina selalu bagitau kat anak-anak.. Allah bagi kita peluang untuk rasa.. macam mana sesetengah orang tu berlapar.. kita berlapar sebulan je.. ada je orang yang berlapar sepanjang tahun..Jadi kita kenalah bersyukur dengan apa yang kita ada.
Jadi sempena Ramadhan ini, Nina bagi pihak seluruh keluarga nina menyusun 10 jari, dengan rasa rendah diri, memohon ampun dan maaf bagi apa juga kesalahan sama ada kecil atau besar dan minta dihalalkan makan dan minum (masa potluck tu main makan je hehe) .. apatah lagi, kita yang suka bergurau ni, tak tahu, entah-entah ada yang terguris di hati.. Bukan apa, terkedu bila suami balik dari terawih semalam bagitau antara orang yang tak mendapat pengampunan Allah ialah orang yang memutuskan silaturrahim dan tidak memohon ampun dari orang yang diputuskan silaturrahim.. Dosa kita dengan Allah memang Allah akan ampunkan kerana Allah itu maha Pengampun. tapi rupanya dosa kita dengan manusia..
Ampun dan maaf ya.. semoga Ramadhan ini Ramadhan yang terbaik buat kita.. dan semoga kita dipertemukan dengan Lailatul Qadar.. Amiiin amiin ya robbal 'alamiin..
Selalunya.. sejak lahir anak yang sulung 11 tahun.. cuma dua kali je miss puasa. Yelah... mengandung, menyusu.. mengandung lagi dan menyusu.. Tak merasalah mengganti puasa. Bila tahun lepas bersalin dalam bulan ramadhan, 15 hari lah nak kena gantinya.. masih belum habis ganti.. Agaknya semangat yang tak berapa kuat... almaklumlah.. bila menyusu.. memang sentiasa lapar.
Terharu rasa bila anak-anak sanggup puasa sunat menemankan ibu mengganti puasa.. Siap pesan pada yang sulung, kalau ibu tiada.. waris yang kena gantikan.. Dia janji akan gantikan. Alhamdulillah..
Percubaan kali pertama bawa Muhammad ke masjid masa solat hajat sekolah anak. Tak sampai satu rakaat dah terbatal.. bukan apa.. tergelak sebab Muhammad merangkak melintasi jemaah sambil berhenti dan mengagah makcik-makcik dan kakak kakak.. Nina terus pergi ke saf hujung dan tunggu dia.. Harap-harap tak marah lah makcik-makcik tu ya..
Bila dah ada baby.. dulu terasa sedih la jugak, tak boleh nak pergi ke surau bersama-sama ahli keluarga yang lain, miss ceramah-ceramah di antara terawih.. tapi bila difikirkan balik, Allah memang bagi bonus bagi ibu-ibu yang menjaga anak. Duduk di rumah pun dah dikira ibadah, setiap tangisan apabila memotong bawang dikira pahala. Apatah lagi bila, menyusukan anak. Bila ingat balik pahala yang Allah sediakan walaupun berada di rumah.. terubat hati ini. Janji, tak boleh merungut.
Bila Ramadhan tiba, entah kenapa terasa sayu hati.. dengan kerahmatan Allah. Sesungguhnya Dialah yang Maha Pemurah.. Diberikan bonus berganda-ganda.. Diberikan ruang untuk kita memperbaiki diri kita dan ruang untuk kita bertarung dengan nafsu sendiri. Selalunya.. kita menyalahkan syaitan. Allah juga memberi 'servis' percuma.. Sebulan untuk servis 'digestive' kita, (selagi kita tidak makan macam gilerr).
Nina awal-awal lagi dah beritau adik ipar yang tinggal dengan kami buat masa ni.. bulan puasa ni, kami tak makan mewah-mewah.. tahun lepas, sekali pun tak pergi ke bazar ramadhan. Nina nampak dia macam terkejut. Bukan apa, harga dah tentu melambung-lambung dan kalau bulan Ramadhan ni tak ambil peluang nak jinakkan nafsu, rugilah. Lagipun, memang suami dan Nina selalu bagitau kat anak-anak.. Allah bagi kita peluang untuk rasa.. macam mana sesetengah orang tu berlapar.. kita berlapar sebulan je.. ada je orang yang berlapar sepanjang tahun..Jadi kita kenalah bersyukur dengan apa yang kita ada.
Jadi sempena Ramadhan ini, Nina bagi pihak seluruh keluarga nina menyusun 10 jari, dengan rasa rendah diri, memohon ampun dan maaf bagi apa juga kesalahan sama ada kecil atau besar dan minta dihalalkan makan dan minum (masa potluck tu main makan je hehe) .. apatah lagi, kita yang suka bergurau ni, tak tahu, entah-entah ada yang terguris di hati.. Bukan apa, terkedu bila suami balik dari terawih semalam bagitau antara orang yang tak mendapat pengampunan Allah ialah orang yang memutuskan silaturrahim dan tidak memohon ampun dari orang yang diputuskan silaturrahim.. Dosa kita dengan Allah memang Allah akan ampunkan kerana Allah itu maha Pengampun. tapi rupanya dosa kita dengan manusia..
Ampun dan maaf ya.. semoga Ramadhan ini Ramadhan yang terbaik buat kita.. dan semoga kita dipertemukan dengan Lailatul Qadar.. Amiiin amiin ya robbal 'alamiin..
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
A Test from Allah?
Ya Allah.. ini ujianMu.. Alhamdulillah.. tanda aku disayangi olehMu.. maka kau berilah aku kekuatan untuk menghadapinya.
My heart is torn apart. I just restarted baking as a career. I just need to pay my bills. Kecil juga hati bila salah seorang rakan cakap.. "orang yang suka bisnes ni mesti suka duit".. nina menidakkan.. "taklah kak, na ni bil pun tak lepas.." Honestly... I just love the cash flow.. when i was working with the government.. though i was late to class, my salary was never late in my account, in full, no deduction for the time i spent on walking to class! But now, no baking means no money.
Alhamdulillah.. rupa-rupanya Allah sudah aturkan perjalanan hidup ini. Siapa tahu, asalnya menolong kawan carikan resepi berakhir dengan satu karier baru yang cukup menyenangkan hati. Apatah lagi dari rumah sambil menyusukan Muhammad. What a dream career for some mommies! I just love it to work at home at the comfort of my kitchen.
It's just that, I think this is the very test from Allah.. a specially designed test meant for me and me alone. Which takes me back to more or less two years ago when I cried my eyes out. After a gentle reminder from a friend asking me to keep at least one recipe to myself, I just laughed. Basically, I shared my recipes with friends. My traditional Sampret, my Marble Shortbread and Chocolate Cips including my Moist Chocolate Cake. I remember how my 6 cakes went flat out of the oven when i was a bit fidgety about sharing the cake recipe. I know it was a reminder from Allah and by then, I believe that recipes are part of ilmu that is supposed to be shared. Well, that was what I believed until i shared with a 'friend'.
At first, we were acquaintance, and became friends as i shared my recipe, cooking tips, and everything i know about doing business. I was glad that she even started her own cake selling. Anyway.. since we meet quite often, the circle of friends are more or less the same. I remember perfectly well that morning. I was supposed to send my cuppies at the cafe where we hang out but kept on postponing a few times. I didn't realize that the one who kept on asking about this was this friend. That morning... I was standing at that table when she loudly asked, "Nina.. bila kau nak hantar kek tu.. kalau kau tak nak hantar, biarla aku yang hantar...". The whole table was quiet and everyone looked at me, anxiously waiting for the answer. "Hantarlah...". The minute I went home I cried tears of betrayal. I never thought it hurt so bad.. I kept on asking myself.. why did she have to sell at the place where I was supposed to sell.
I called my other friend and blurted everything.. I took out the recipe from my blog and kept it to myself. It was time to keep a recipe to myself. 2 years have passed and now I'm back in business.. and 2 nights ago, my phone rang. It was another friend, who has the very same circle of friends as mine and the very same potential customers, sharing the same type of business. She complimented how marvelous my cake is.. one of the best.. and asked me how to make the topping.. I told her how easy it was using my recipe and gave her.. My heart sank when she continued "Rasa macam nak je resepi kek tu...".. and I had tears in my eyes..
Please please please.. if you manage to spend time reading this till the very end.. can you please spend another minute, letting me know.. what should i do.. I'd really appreciate it..
My heart is torn apart. I just restarted baking as a career. I just need to pay my bills. Kecil juga hati bila salah seorang rakan cakap.. "orang yang suka bisnes ni mesti suka duit".. nina menidakkan.. "taklah kak, na ni bil pun tak lepas.." Honestly... I just love the cash flow.. when i was working with the government.. though i was late to class, my salary was never late in my account, in full, no deduction for the time i spent on walking to class! But now, no baking means no money.
Alhamdulillah.. rupa-rupanya Allah sudah aturkan perjalanan hidup ini. Siapa tahu, asalnya menolong kawan carikan resepi berakhir dengan satu karier baru yang cukup menyenangkan hati. Apatah lagi dari rumah sambil menyusukan Muhammad. What a dream career for some mommies! I just love it to work at home at the comfort of my kitchen.
It's just that, I think this is the very test from Allah.. a specially designed test meant for me and me alone. Which takes me back to more or less two years ago when I cried my eyes out. After a gentle reminder from a friend asking me to keep at least one recipe to myself, I just laughed. Basically, I shared my recipes with friends. My traditional Sampret, my Marble Shortbread and Chocolate Cips including my Moist Chocolate Cake. I remember how my 6 cakes went flat out of the oven when i was a bit fidgety about sharing the cake recipe. I know it was a reminder from Allah and by then, I believe that recipes are part of ilmu that is supposed to be shared. Well, that was what I believed until i shared with a 'friend'.
At first, we were acquaintance, and became friends as i shared my recipe, cooking tips, and everything i know about doing business. I was glad that she even started her own cake selling. Anyway.. since we meet quite often, the circle of friends are more or less the same. I remember perfectly well that morning. I was supposed to send my cuppies at the cafe where we hang out but kept on postponing a few times. I didn't realize that the one who kept on asking about this was this friend. That morning... I was standing at that table when she loudly asked, "Nina.. bila kau nak hantar kek tu.. kalau kau tak nak hantar, biarla aku yang hantar...". The whole table was quiet and everyone looked at me, anxiously waiting for the answer. "Hantarlah...". The minute I went home I cried tears of betrayal. I never thought it hurt so bad.. I kept on asking myself.. why did she have to sell at the place where I was supposed to sell.
I called my other friend and blurted everything.. I took out the recipe from my blog and kept it to myself. It was time to keep a recipe to myself. 2 years have passed and now I'm back in business.. and 2 nights ago, my phone rang. It was another friend, who has the very same circle of friends as mine and the very same potential customers, sharing the same type of business. She complimented how marvelous my cake is.. one of the best.. and asked me how to make the topping.. I told her how easy it was using my recipe and gave her.. My heart sank when she continued "Rasa macam nak je resepi kek tu...".. and I had tears in my eyes..
Please please please.. if you manage to spend time reading this till the very end.. can you please spend another minute, letting me know.. what should i do.. I'd really appreciate it..
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